A little bit more about me Part 2

So basically I decided to just act like myself again. I didn't hide the fact that I watched Naruto, or played WoW all the time. I was happier knowing that I didn't have to hide from people. It was so freeing to know that I was being true to myself, and I truly believe people accepted me for who I really was. So I will let you guys in on a little secret now :) I have always wanted to do something, but I never really thought I would have the courage to go through with it. Well this year, I say I do. I am going to a little thing called Tokyo in Tulsa, and I will be dressed as Sora from Kingdom Hearts II. Nerdy, I know. But you have no idea how pumped I am. I am getting together funds to get everything set. I have about two months to get the cash. Anyone wanna help me out? Haha just kidding. I know for something like this I will be the one to raise the cash.

But anyways, High School went much, much smoother than Middle School did. I had this amazing thing called Pride. It was the door to the friends I have today, as well as the newfound self esteem I had from Pride. I enjoyed High School so much. It is so far the best time of my life. I found so many friends through band, and it helped me branch out and break my hermit shell. I went from playing games and never hanging out with anyone to having more close friends who shared my gaming interests as well as TV (If not for Heroes I wouldn't have really been good friends with Brucey lol). So it is amazing how one little change can effect my life. But I am very glad I was in band those 7 years. It has really been one of the greatest things I have ever done. But enough of this lol.

So is there anything in particular you want to ask? Like I said in my last post I will answer any question you have for me. Go ahead and ask me :) So until next time, -Blake

A little bit more about me.

So for those of you who know, I am Blake Michael Wilhelm. I am 19, and I am a freshman at TCC. Blah, blah, blah. That may describe me, but thats not who I am. I am a person who forgives and forgets much too easily. Some of my closest friends have taken advantage of me, or my possessions, or even my house. I try to think I would have done the same in their shoes, but I really wouldn't have. When someone gets mad, I try to calm them down. When I get angry (well, no one has seen me truly angry) I get the feeling of being completely powerless. I can't fight my anger. It is so incredibly slow to rise, but if it does, trust me on this, get the HELL out of my way. I may not look like much, but I can kick some serious butt if I really need to. But enough of that.

I am a HUGE nerd. I watch anime. I read manga. I play(ed) World of Warcraft. Name something nerdy, and I probably do it. I'm sorry if you think that's weird, but if you do, GET OVER IT. I am not here for you. I am here to be true to myself. So what if I religiously follow Bleach, Naruto, and Fairy Tail? I love reading about the guy who finds out he can succeed in what he believes in, and still to this day I wish I could use jutsu, or have a zanpakutou, or be a mage, or eat a devil fruit, or have a pokemon, or my most strong wish of all, to just scream at the top of my lungs, and go Super Saiyan. I will until I die. That is the kind of magic I live for. Its what I love. I bear my soul to you. I won't keep anything out.

I also play lots of games. I own the main three consoles as well as both of the handheld ones. I love hearing about new games and much of my mind is consumed with the next Final Fantasy/Kingdom Hearts/ Pokemon/ Naruto/ whatever game. It is the habit that has truly defined my childhood. I have beaten Blue version about 15-20 times. That doesn't count Red (5), Yellow (7), Gold (1), Silver (4), Crystal (2), Ruby (2), Sapphire (1), Diamond (1), or Platinum (2). I live video games. But again enough of that crap.

So I'm sure some people see me and the last thing they think is "Man this is the nerdiest looking kid I've ever seen!" I will admit, I can seem to hide it to some people. But I have really tried to get away from that habit. When I was in elementary school, I was bullied a lot. Not physically, but verbally. I had zero self esteem. I wanted to drop off of the face of the earth at times. It was tough. The only thing I had to get me through it all was my games. Specifically my Game Boy. Ask any relative of mine and they will tell you: all I did was a child was play games. It was my perfect escape. The tiny game cartridges were my best and sometimes only friends.

Then came middle school. Haskell. I will never hate a period of my life as much as 6th grade. It was hell. But something good did come out of it: band. I would not know it, but it would be the catalyst behind my entire adult mindset. 6th grade brought me almost no friends, and I rejoiced when I found out we were moving. It was my fresh start: my new Beginning. But I didn't really change. I found some people at Sequoyah, and talked about my love for DBZ, or Yugioh, or .hack, or Outlaw Star, or Yu Yu Hakusho, or anything else I could think of. It was my identity. It was who I loved being. Its who I still am, luckily. I almost sold out. I was so close. But then I realized everything: (LANGUAGE WARNING) I don't give a FUCK what people think about me.

I needed to get away from the people who ridiculed me for playing Yugioh or Magic cards after school. So, I started dressing like my brother. I started to wear the Abercrombie, American Eagle, and Hollister clothes. I still wear some of them. I started to alter who I really was. I shunned my old friends. Worst mistake of my life. I gained new "friends", though we never hung out outside of school. But I gained one friend: Jeremie. The one friend who would make all of the difference. I would hang out with him every day from 7th grade until like 11th or 12th grade. He is still without a doubt my best friend. We had everything in common. We played games, talked about anime/manga, and life was great. I realized I didn't have to wear that crap as a shield anymore. I could be myself and if it bothered people, so what? What the hell do I care?

Well that will do it for now. If you have any questions, feel free to ask. I will hide NOTHING. So until next time, -Blake.

Work, work, work, work, work.

So this past week I have been in sales training for Best Buy. I was lucky to get a job, I know, but the more I see the managers the more I realize: Almost none of them have kids. They all work 6 days a week, 60-70 hours a week. I know they get paid well, but they have no free time whatsoever. Its hard to imagine a career in which you get everything in the world you want, and yet have no time to actually enjoy it. Now I know you can really love your job, but do you want to miss your child's first steps, or their sporting events?

My mom works a lot. She would miss stuff, but she would get to whatever she could, preferably on weekends. My dad, however, while he came to baseball stuff, he never really showed enthusiasm for my marching band career. I know it isn't the varsity football or basketball team, but it really hurt to know that he probably didn't care a whole lot. What kid wants to go through that? I didn't. I just want some of you workaholic parents to see what that can do to a kid. I retreated into video games because my parents never really did stuff with us. Thats what I would focus all of my attention on. I know it hurt my grades. To be totally honest, it still does. I still will pick up Pokemon instead of working on math. Its my worst habit.

My parents would try to do stuff like at the end of spring break or so. We might have a fun day or two, but most nights they would come home from work, tell us what to clean, and then just watch tv in their room or something. It was sad. I see parents of friends who are actively involved in their kids life and I can't help but be jealous. Its something I always wanted but could never quite get. It still kind of tugs at me. But enough of this rant for now. Enjoy your lives. Until next time, -Blake.

It's been a while!

So I had completely forgotten about my blog until a friend created one. Thanks Josh Esau! Hahaha. Well anyway I have been going to TCC as some of you know, and I have to say it really was a great idea! I have saved so much, and since I got a job at Best Buy, things have been going extremely well! Its finally time to start making some money, and get some much needed credit for school. I'll be taking some classes in the summer as well. But enough about that. So for the past week I have been playing so many games its not even funny. First it was Final Fantasy XIII, which I have to say was absolutely breathtaking. Then it was God of War III, and I ended up playing the original God of War as well so I could get some trophies lol. Things with Kayla are going extremely well, and our 9 month anniversary is this Tuesday! Well sorry for the totally random blog but I really have nothing that amazing to say... Sorry if you were looking for the philosophical moment but I'm really not feeling it tonight. See you all later!